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Je pense, donc je suis

Dec. 22nd, 2007 | 05:18 pm
mood: contentcontent
music: funny you should ask

I've spent my first hours back in Pittsford re-watching movies I used to watch as a kid. I love this one....

The hills are alive with the sound of music
With songs they have sung for a thousand years.
The hills fill my heart with the sound of music
My heart wants to sing every song it hears.
My heart wants to beat like the wings
Of the birds that rise from the lake to the trees,
My heart wants to sigh like a chime that flies from a church on a breeze,
To laugh like a brook when it trips and falls
Over stones on its way
To sing through the night like a lark who is learning to pray.
I go to the hills when my heart is lonely,
I know I will hear what I've heard before.
My heart will be blessed with the sound of music
And I'll sing once more

Like home, this never gets old. :)

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Just a regular girl's thoughts

Nov. 12th, 2007 | 05:54 pm
mood: pensivepensive
music: belle and sebastian ~ piazza, new york catcher

The more I learn... the more I realize how much I really don't know.

This applies to academics, world news, and even my closest relationships.


Longing for home a little bit right now... I guess if I weren't longing for it, it wouldn't be home anymore.


I'm trying to figure out what I want out of this life. Would it be too trivial to say that all I want is to live and be happy? I'm not talking about that overhyped happiness you get from receiving the best gifts at Christmas or from getting the job of your dreams... rather, that subtle happiness that comes from just living and being.

If that's the case, I think I'm well on my way. Now it's my turn to make sure you get on your way too.

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Life's great balancing act

Oct. 6th, 2007 | 01:08 pm
mood: pensivepensive
music: coldplay ~ amsterdam

People go in and out of my life and I barely notice. The freshmen come in, the seniors graduate... and now it's almost my turn to go. I walk down the hall and say brief hellos to a dozen or more people on my way to class. But what's the point of saying hello if that's all I have time to say? How is that person feeling? What is that person up to tonight? What's the most exciting thing in that person's life right now? I wouldn't be able to tell you.

I don't think it's a product of apathy, because if I could, I'd sit down next to the river with each person I've said hello to in my life and have a long conversation with them. I used to do that in high school - we used to shoot the shit on driveways, in Wegmans parking lots, at coffee shops, in bookstores... I used to learn from people just by hearing about their lives, and I miss that.

Now it's all about thinking about ME - my future, applying to graduate schools, it's all so important, isn't it? What I consider fun now is taking a break from work to watch an episode or walking across the hall to have a brief conversation about life (but how can you possibly cut short a conversation about something so intrinsically important?). It's not about losing passion, but not having enough time for it...

I was a counselor for this week-long program called Freshman Leadership Program two years in a row. Both years, I was reminded of how much I miss thinking about life and talking to people about life. All we do there is talk, brainstorm, say what's on our mind at the moment, and somehow, it's cathartic enough to come back feeling like I've never felt before.

It's time to start balancing what needs to be done with what I want to do. Taking care of what needs to be done is satisfying, but it will never lead to the same satisfaction as having those long, directionless conversations, without a care in the world.

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And I think it's gonna be a long, long time...

Jun. 19th, 2007 | 12:16 pm
mood: okayokay
music: elton john ~ rocket man

Going back to Pittsford in a few weeks... I'm looking forward to sitting along the canal, eating at Wegmans or Bruegger's 5+ days a week, hitting up Java's a few times, staying up late in Dan's basement with the regular crowd, NOT going to the dentist, and of course, home-cooked food...

My parents decided to take advantage of America's independence day to go to Canada. Things have worked out such that I guess I'm going too... I've got to brush up on my French, that's for sure. I'll have to make my own fireworks this year, but it'll definitely be a trip to remember.

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...and so by the way, I thank you

May. 17th, 2007 | 11:14 pm
mood: gratefulgrateful
music: jack johnson ~ better together

Looking back, I'm so thankful for what I've been given this year. Junior year, you were pretty damn amazing.

I guess now it's time to look forward. Summer-in-Cambridge-#2. It should be a good time, hopefully full of friends visiting, endless girl-talk, and enjoying the sweet summer sun...

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I am tempted to keep the car in drive

Apr. 11th, 2007 | 10:31 pm
mood: revived
music: ken oak band ~ long ride

Wow. I barely remembered the password. Maybe I'll start this up again, hm?

A lot has happened since the last time I wrote anything, but there's no point in summarizing it all so I guess I'll start with the most recent. First off, if you live in Southern California (namely, San Diego), then you are really lucky. I went there and Los Angeles for spring break, and the laid-back nature of the general population there made me want to live there for the rest of my life. I guess growing up on the East Coast has made me walk quickly, talk quickly, enjoy rushed and efficient service... but sometimes I wish I was brought up to just take it easy...

MIT is still treating me alright. I'm excited for the spring to come and for it to start warming up so I can start running along the river again. All I can say about my life right now is that there's a hell of a lot to look forward to.

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Nov. 18th, 2006 | 12:44 am

I am so confused right now...

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It's in the little things

Oct. 26th, 2006 | 01:50 am
mood: awake
music: the fray ~ over my head

Where does the time go when it's not around here?

A month and a half has slipped by without me writing anything, but I'm basically the same person I was before, with a little more knowledge and the same amount of insight.

My favorite class by far is my physics/astronomy lab, because one night a week we travel to an observatory forty-five minutes away to observe and get data for our final projects. When I'm out there, I forget about people, MIT, work, everything because the place is basically deserted. Out there, I take every chance I can get to look at the sky. When I'm not taking exposures or adjusting the telescope, I lean my head back and stare everywhere around me. And I remember why I came to this place - to learn, to be inspired. Because every single time I'm out there, I am reinspired, if that's even possible. By the stars? I think that's only part of it. I think the main reason is because I'm reminded that there's still so much for me to learn, and it's all there waiting to be discovered.

I think it's important to remember, every once in awhile, why you're doing what you're doing. At least in my experience, life just seems a little happier that way.

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Day of Remembrance

Sep. 11th, 2006 | 09:54 pm
mood: pensivepensive
music: sploosh ~ remembrance

I'm staring at my physics problem set, wondering how me finishing this is going to help the world. It's not going to, really. Even when I grow up and go into physics research... is that really helping?

I guess this day makes me remember that with every tragedy comes some sort of inspiration to do good. Even if it's smiling at strangers in the street, or telling a police officer that you really appreciate him or her. I lit a candle for this day... I lit the candle in memory of a stranger. I don't know if that's okay.

If you found yourself feeling down today, know that you are not alone.

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I already know...

Sep. 6th, 2006 | 12:48 pm
mood: goodgood
music: fort minor ~ where'd you go

...that it's going to be an awesome year. I live in a kick-ass suite, and I'm entering my third year with some sort of renewed strength that I haven't felt in a long while.

I went to a dinner with people I hadn't seen all summer last night. There we were, sitting in Bertucci's, completely delirious because the service was so, so bad. The waitress forgot to bring us water for a long time, but when she did, it was a pitcher which was three-fourths full of ice. She gave one of us the wrong dish but claimed it was right, and never checked up on us during dinner. It took as long to produce the check as it had to eat our dinner. But we had a freaking awesome time... I think at one point, we were all silent due to laughter.

The good times... just because school's starting doesn't mean they have to go away. :) Let's start this year off right.

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